its not too late...

Like I said yesterday, this year has definitely flew by, and I was feeling like I had accomplished nothing this entire year. Until tonight, when my friend Elisa, pointed something out to me. See, Elisa and I have been having these common thoughts throughout the year, basically going along with the theme of finding our true selves. If nothing, 2009 was definitely a year in which I was able to finally break out of my shell and somewhat act like myself.

I am definitely at the point where I am tired of trying to please my parents and society and just do what I want to do. I tried the whole engineering gig, which was a good job on paper, but something that I really did not enjoy. The hardest part about all of this is the standard of life that I gave myself while earning that engineering money. Now that I am unemployed and starting all over, the entire process is starting to get a little stressful for me. The fear of failure and ending up depending on others to help me live my life, is terrifying. It stresses me out and sometimes I get near that point where I am ready to cave in and go back to where I was miserable, for the sake of making my own income again.

2009 was a year of finding myself and I need to keep that optimistic point of view going into 2010.